can i be florence nightingale?

I realized one thing today. Maybe it’s love after all. Maybe I love Nursing too much that I’m scared to commit any mistake, to do something that can take away my freedom to save other people’s lives. Heck! I’ve been so involved in this internal battle for years that I forgot to notice that it has already been won. You see, I always found myself becoming someone who would dedicate her life in bringing the truth in the open; or at least write about it, be associated with the media or something. But I never imagined being an agent of truth myself – in a caring, nurturing kind of way which is Nursing. Years in Nursing school certainly brought out the worst and best in me. I’ve actually came to a point where I regretted everything that I have worked hard for. Yet the love that I never acknowledged until now made everything worthwhile.

I’m sure that whatever happens after this, I will still be happy with the choice I made, coz after all that’s been said and done, the difference I made and the things I did that touched other people’s lives are beyond any sense of fulfillment in this world.

what i get from reading vampire stories.

I just finished reading the Twilight series. True enough, I guess it’s better to find yourself living in a fantasy rather than having to wake up and realize you’re still living in the real world. Compared to the “new kind of haven” I’ve just been through, I feel like their lives are a million times better than mine, even for the danger and complexity of it all. It’s a pity that I won’t ever get to experience the same kind of adventure in this lifetime. For sure it would have made a different person out of me. Perhaps not greater than the person I am now, but at least, different.

Originally posted: September 9, 2008

i'm a peyton, not a brooke.

Sometimes you have to go through every pain, every heartache, every tear…only to feel alive and eventually realize that to be alive is something more to thank for. For most people, that is. But to me, it’s bullsh*t. I’d rather have 24 hours left for me to have my chance at happiness than to bid my time waiting for a life without any chance at all.

Originally posted: September 8, 2008

wishful thinking.

current mood: sleepy

listening to: Freeze by TPain feat. Chris Brown (can't get enough of this tune!)

We had mass this morning at school. It was Ash Wednesday and of course, Servien's thanksgiving as well. i'm glad that many of my batchmates got out of their way just to attend the celebration. It was fun seeing them again, though we aren't complete anymore. Some are already out of the country, some had jobs to deal with. I couldn't help feeling all nostalgic all over again.

I never had been prouder. Look at what we've become. We really made it. We had survived the storm, now we're experiencing the bliss of rainbow-colored days. Life is good. God is good.

Now one thing left for us to have is a little bit of good time. For the past couple of days I started thinking of this Grand Celebation for the batch, since we never had one, not ever. And so began one hell of a personal mission. I gathered the guts to contact some of my well-trusted friends to help me organize one big event for my dear Servien. I couldn't do it on my own, of course. Some agreed, some didn't. 'Twas okay, as long as this plan would be pushed through. This time, I won't take NO for an answer. This had to happen. Four years in the making and it comes down to this one particular moment - a time for oneness of heart and spirit.

I hope everything goes well. I really hope that everything would fall into place and work out for the best. It would be our first and last.

xoxo, Yan

P.S.

I was able to collect around three thousand bucks this morning. Good start right?

109 ---> excuse me. i have a life.

(taken from hazel's blogspot post)

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life.
Mark the ones you've seen.
There are 170 movies on this list. Put your score in header and repost:

( ) Sukob ( ) Oh my ghost! ( ) White lady (X) Wag kang lilingon (X) Feng shui ( ) KKK ( ) Enteng Kabisote ( ) Enteng Kabisote 2 ( ) Enteng Kabisote 3 ( ) Super Noypi ( ) Karma (X) Shake, Rattle and Roll (X) D Anothers (X) First Day High

Total: 5

(X) Bring it On 1 (X) Bring it On 2 (X) Napoleon Dynamite ( ) Fun With Dick and Jane ( ) Cake (X) Zathura ( ) Borat (X) Dead or Alive (X) 8 mile (X) 50 First Dates (X) The Princess Diaries (X) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement (X) Legally Blonde (X) Legally Blonde 2

Total: 11

(X) Charlie's Angels (X) Dude, Where's My Car? (X) Scary Movie (X) Scary Movie 2 (X) Scary Movie 3 (X) Scary Movie 4 (X) American Pie (X) American Pie 2 (X) American Wedding (X) American Pie Band Camp

Total: 10

(X) Harry Potter (X) Harry Potter 2 (X) Harry Potter 3 (X) Harry Potter 4 (X) Resident Evil 1 ( ) Resident Evil 2 (X) The Wedding Singer ( ) Cinderella Man (X) The Village (X) Coyote Ugly

Total : 8

(X) Space Jam ( ) Finding Neverland (X) Signs (X) The Grinch ( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (X) White Chicks (X) Little Manhattan (X) 13 Going on 30 (X) Click (X) Devil Wears Prada

Total : 8

(X) Mighty Ducks 1 (X) Mighty Ducks 2 (X) Mighty Ducks 3 (X) Along Came Polly (X) Deep Impact ( ) KingPin (X) Meet The Parents (X) Meet the Fockers ( ) Eight Crazy Nights ( ) Joe Dirt (X) Anaconda

Total : 8

(X) Alice in Wonderland ( ) The Terminal (X) The Lizzie McGuire Movie ( ) Deep Blue Sea ( ) Dumb & Dumber ( ) Dumber & Dumberer (X) Final Destination (X) Final Destination 2 (X) Final Destination 3 ( ) Halloween (X) The Ring ( ) The Ring 2 ( ) Ring Zero (X) Flubber ( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle (X) Practical Magic ( ) Chicago ( ) Ghost Ship ( ) From Hell (x) Hellboy ( ) Secret Window (X) I Am Sam ( ) The whole nine yards ( ) The Whole Ten Yards

Total : 10

(X) The Day After Tomorrow (X) Child's Play ( ) Seed of Chucky ( ) Bride of Chucky (X) 10 Things I Hate About You (X) Just Married ( ) Gothika ( ) Nightmare on Elm Street (X) Sixteen Candles ( ) Remember the Titans ( ) Coach Carter (X) The Grudge ( ) The Grudge 2 (X) The Mask ( ) Son Of The Mask

Total : 7

(X) My Super Ex-Girlfriend ( ) Joy Ride (X) She's the Man ( ) Ocean's Eleven ( ) Ocean's Twelve (X) Mean Girls (X) Step Up ( ) Pearl Harbor ( ) Predator I ( ) Predator II ( ) Superstar ( ) Happy Feet (X) Ice Age (X) Ice age 2 The Meltdown

Total : 6

(X) Independence Day (X) Cujo (X) Idle Hands ( ) Darkness Falls ( ) Christine (X) ET ( ) Children of the Corn (X) My Boss' Daughter (X) Maid in Manhattan ( ) Monsters Inc. (X) Rush Hour (X) Rush Hour 2 ( ) Best Bet (X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (X) She's All That (X) Poseidon (X) Titanic ( ) Mars Attacks ( ) Event Horizon (X) Ever After (X) Forrest Gump ( ) Big Trouble in Little China (X) The Terminator ( ) The Terminator 2 ( ) The Terminator 3

Total : 15

(X) X-Men (X) X-Men 2 (X) X-Men 3 (X) Spider-Man (X) Spider-Man 2 (X) Sky High ( ) Jeepers Creepers ( ) Jeepers Creepers 2 ( ) Catch Me If You Can (X) The Others ( ) The Eye ( ) Dark Water (X) Cruel Intentions (X) Cruel Intentions 2 (X) The Hot Chick (X) Shrek (X) Shrek 2

Total : 12

(X) Swimfan ( ) Miracle (X) School of Rock ( ) K-Paxx (X) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (X) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (X) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (X) A Walk To Remember (X) Hollow Man ( ) The 40-year-old-virgin (X) The Exorcist (X) Exorcism of Emily Rose

Total: 9

GRAND TOTAL: 109 movies

Verdict: Certified Movie Buff. But take note, I have a life!

rise of the slumdog.

Current mood: sleepy

Listening to: How to Say Goodbye by Paul Tiernan

This was originally posted on my Friendster account a few weeks ago.

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SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE

A Review

This is the first time I got into the Academy Awards movie craze, and my first time to ever like an indie-derivative, Bollywood-turned-Hollywood type of film...all because of this one particular movie.

Everything about it is practically superb. When you look at the whole picture, you'll see that all angles were perfectly aligned to create such a wonderful masterpiece.

The story is the soul of the whole movie. It's truly one of a kind. The life that Jamal and his brother had is by chance one of the hardest and the most extraordinary I've seen that is depicted on film. With all the twists and turns, detours and probably dead ends in their journey, only a person whose heart is strong and genuine can survive.

As a movie buff who dislikes dirty and unorganized settings such as the slums, this one truly changed my perspective. It's really difficult to shoot in a dangerous and fast-paced city like Mumbai, yet the production crew managed to pull it off just fine. All the scenes were beautifully captured and were able to encapsulate both the innocence and tragedy in Jamal's life - all of which contributed to his millionaire success.

Acting - brilliant.

Cinematography - beautiful.

Editing - outstanding.

Soundtrack - awesome.

To sum up, SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE is by far the movie to beat. With 10 nominations under its belt, it's a surefire hit that will not only take the Oscars by storm, but our hearts as well.

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What did I just say about taking the Oscars by storm?

8 wins out of 10!!! Magnificent!

- Best Adapted Screenplay

- Best Cinematography

- Best Sound Mixing

- Best Editing

- Best Original Score

- Best Original Song

- Best Director

- BEST PICTURE

What a real piece of art. I was so touched to see the whole gang receive the award on stage - even that cute, little boy who portrayed the younger Jamal.

For sure, this one's going to stay in my heart for quite a while. =)

P.S.

I didn't know Hugh Jackmn was fit for musical roles. That man can definitely carry a tune...and dance too! Way to go, Wolverine!!!

200%

Current mood: excited

Listening to: chiping of the birds...swaying of the trees in the breeze

For the past two days I was really bummed with my internet connection at home. I coudn't browse, chat or even blog. It was like being imprisoned. And the worse part was...I coudn't do anything about it. Grr!

But what really made my day (February 20) was the text coming from Madam that our batch got a 100% passing rate in the November Board exam. Nothing, not even the network's wacky hell of a service can disrupt me in a new-found state of Nirvana.

At long last, we really did it. We actually made it happen.

We crossed barriers.

We went against the norm.

We disproved the society's judgments about us.

We made history.

I hate to say this but...Ooops, we did it again. (*wink!)

200%!!! 200%!!!

Hell yeah! I totally saw this coming! Without a doubt, I knew we could all make it!

Gosh, I can't really describe the feeling. I'm just so proud and blessed to be part of this wickedly awesome batch...Servien, my family. It only shows that with smarts like ours, incredible talent, passion, true determination, bucket-full of prayers and unwavering, perfect FAITH, nothing, and absolutely nothing...is impossible.

God is so good. For this and more, we owe Him all the glory.

To my Servien, let this be the beginning of the fulfillment of our dreams. We can make it happen. Together, let us continue making a difference because...

(everbody, altogether shout!!)

Once a Servien, always a Servien.

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By the way, I got this from a comment in our Servien Friendster Account.

SERVIEN FUN TRIVIA:

1.) From June 2008 to May 2009 - It's the Year of St. Paul

2.)2008 (last year) Mother of Candles Feast in Jaro, color of candle is BLUE

2009 (this year) Mother of Candles Feast in Jaro, color of candle is GREEN

3.)June Board Exam: 1&2 (BEGINNING OF THE MONTH)November Board Exam: 29&30 (END OF THE MONTH) ALPHA PHI OMEGA - The BEGINNING AND THE END - GOD ALMIGHTY

4.) June 2008 - results released at nightNovember 2008 - results released at dayIN DARKNESS & IN LIGHT - GOD IS WITH US

5.) Servien Mass Song: One Bread, One Body, One People - ONE HUNDRED PERCENT

6.)IN-HOUSE LOCATIONS: JUNE: St. Paul University Dorm - BACK GARDEN WITH CHRIST ON THE CROSSNOVEMBER: Holy Rosary Reflection Center - FRONT GARDEN - MOTHER MARY (SERVANTS OF CHRIST + SERVANTS OF MARY = SERVIEN CHRISTI MARIAE)

EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE! WE WERE MADE FOR GOD'S PURPOSE! TO SERVE & LIVE FOR OTHERS & FOR HIS GREATER GLORY!

-thanks to Maggy for posting this. what a true inspiration!

metalmouth and guilty stories.

current mood: tired
listening to: my dormate blabbering on the phone

i got my braces adjusted today. i was hoping for a little relief for i knew it was going to be "drool day" for me. luckily, it didn't hurt much like the last time. again, i'm scheduled for another appointment next week.

my doctor did the usual, like readjusting the elastic wire (sort of rubber band) around my incisors and canines. Then he put some kind of metal wire around another one which was the source of the minor ache i'm having right now.i'm sure a little dose of ibuprofen would settle the problem for me. maybe later.

the rest of the day went okay, i guess. i treated my friend Ginle to a movie. we watched Bride Wars. it was hilarious. typical girl-bonding kind of flick. then we scooped the whole mall for shoes. i was looking for a pair of black flats for my new yellow dress, and Gee was looking for black pumps for her own seminar outfit. we looked everywhere, in every shop and botique but unluckily, we didn't find what we were looking for. bummer!

we went back to ginle's house to pee. we chatted for a while - about our own whereabouts, the latest gossip on our friends and of course, boys. then i went to atrium to scout for new DVDs. guess what my purchase was! A BlueRay copy of Nick &Norah's Infinite Playlist! like i didn't have enough of that already. heck, i'm addicted!

anyway, i asked my mom if could take some moolah from my Metro ATM. i was planning to buy that C-U-T-E blouse from Kamiseta if i'd decided not to buy the flats i've been eyeing the whole afternoon. of course, my mom didn't approve. she said it was way too much to spend on a single shirt. i was crushed, but then i knew better. (mindflash: parents worrying about NCLEX expenses, lack of income, financial crisis, etc.)


so the sad ending was...

i went home with a heavy heart,
but a clear conscience. (smiling)

xoxo, Yan2

nick & norah's valentine lesson.

The first time I’ve read about about Nick & Norah was from Candy Magazine. It was from an article featuring some of the most read teenage books of today. I didn’t really paid much attention to it that time but when I heard that they will make it into a movie, I got interested. Soon I was looking for it in the bookstores and just my luck when I got my hands on one.

It’s an interesting story, not your typical high school boy-meets-girl-and-they-fall-in-love kind of drama. It’s one of a kind. Sometimes things don’t really make sense but they happen because it’s meant to be that way. Sometimes when fate allows us, we meet the love of our lives in the most peculiar places, in the most unexpected way. We never know but the stranger right in front of us can be the person we were meant to spend the rest of our lives with. We just need to open our eyes…and hearts to let love find us. This is what Nick and Norah taught me.

The movie is amazing. It’s one crazy laugh trip that you and your friends can enjoy. Since it’s book-based, some of the scenes were modified to fit the audience’s taste but the way I see it, they still did Cohn and Levithan justice.

As for the book, it’s smart and funny. I may say it’s quite disturbing to read a lot of F words throughout the pages but still, it’s ingeniously written. The authors had their way of making the readers laugh and curse and still fall in love at the same time.

Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist – a rockin’ soundtrack-filled, wild ride that can make you get lost in the busy streets of Manhattan, but only to be led back home on the road of true love.