ripped.

Current Mood: Sleepy
Listening to: Don’t Trust Me by 3oh!3

There are two sides to my psyche.

One that’s vibrant and fun and full of life.
Then there’s a part of me that’s dark and twisty and angry.

Most of the time, I find it hard coming to terms with my own self. Like I’m this two separate beings. Like I’m disconnected from my soul, from all of it. I feel so… lost. Take into consideration my two blogs. I mean, who in their sane minds would categorize their feelings, right? I am just so out of this world. I can’t wait for the day when I can actually be a whole person.

xoxo.

Back from lockdown.

Current Mood: adrenaline-pumped
Listening to: Believe by All American Rejects

Ever felt like you’re supposed to move forward but can’t? Like your feet feels suddenly glued and don’t respond to what your brain tells them? Or worse, like they’re not there at all? Phantom.

You’re stuck. And the people around you keeps moving, faster and faster, never stopping. You want to keep up but you can’t. Everything’s spinning so fast and you’re in the middle of it all. You’re motionless, but you can’t seem to catch your breath.

This was me in the past six months.

I was quite wandering off the point and there was no clear road for me. I was suffocated by all the things in my life so I took a little time off for myself; which meant no social networking or blogging, so I can focus on dealing with things without overanalyzing them. (I tend to overanalyze when I post my thoughts online). But mostly so that I can focus on my NCLEX exams. (Who was I kidding? Haha. So not funny. I really hope I pass).

Well anyway, the break’s over. I can breathe better now. Things seem to pick up and the future is hell of a view from where I stand. I know I’ll get through it.

I kind of left things hanging from that last time I blogged. I never even got to write about our batch’s last hurrah last March. It was a blast! Oh well, let the pictures do the talking. (Check out my Friendster account). So far, my Facebook page is kinda bare…tasteless…as of the moment. I’ll get to it soon though. Everybody’s an enthusiast about all these kinds of stuff like Mafia Wars, Resto City, Farmtown (whatev) and I feel so lost. But I’ll learn playing them. Eventually.

So here’s the thing. Even without blogging, did you seriously think I’d stopped writing? Duh. I can’t help it. Dude, it’s my fate we’re talking here. I’m positive I was a writer even in a thousand lifetimes I had in the past. So I’m just gonna post some of my entries which I hopelessly typed in my phone in a desperate need to capture my thoughts. God, I had to endure a painstaking way of using my phone’s keypads.

So this was me, in the past 6 months. Well, a portion of me, that is.
XOXO.

Entry 001:
Masochist. That’s who I am lately. But then again, I guess that’s what I’ve always been. It’s my nature to inflict pain on myself, hoping to get a sense of purpose out of it; hoping it would take away the guilt, and eventually liberate myself from the burden of having too much, of feeling too much. That if I can just have all the grief and heartache now, I may have a chance at happiness beyond my wildest dreams.


Entry 002:
My life is a series of dead-ends, a bizarre roadmap waiting to be figured out. Am I on the right track? Do I need a detour? Will I ever make it out alive?

At this point, I think I’ve lost my way, but I know I could never go back. Not now, not ever. I just have to keep moving, keep running, keep living.


Entry 003:
I can’t wait to get out of here. I’ve always lived for others. Now it’s my turn to live for myself – by my own standards, by my own rules. There’s so much out there. It’s a party waiting to happen and I’m just an inch away. I could almost taste it.


Entry 004:
My love for you is like an ocean, boundless and deep. No matter how hard I try to sail across the water, I could never get myself to reach the shore.


Entry 005:
“The truth hurts, and lies worse.” – Broken Strings

I say it’s the other way around. Why lie, when the truth didn’t hurt that much in the first place?


Entry 006:
When you really like someone, your heart can no longer take the pressure to feel anything else. You’re trapped and the only way to feel relief is when you’re able to share that pressure with the person whom your heart beats for. Otherwise, the heaviness of it all will consume you and eat you alive. Tsk. Tsk. The tragedy of unrequited love.


Entry 007:
How can you tell if you’re able to move beyond the fear? Is one moment enough to measure one’s bravery? How about if there are more to move past against and you lose some battles along the way? How then could you measure up?


Entry 008:
So what if I send quotes all day?
So what if it’s a way to kill time?
So what if I have nothing better to do?
So what if it’s the only way to feel that I’m not alone?


Entry 009:
Not always can I just sleep this off. Most of the time, when it’s all dark and silent, it’s me and the hundred more thoughts I’m dying to escape from. I wish for someone to hold my hand, and to whisper sweet words in my ear until I fall asleep.


Entry 010:
Doing the right thing doesn’t always make you happy. So do yourself a favor. Compromise. Find the middle ground. Meet halfway. Only then can both versions of yourself go home satisfied.


Entry 011:
I’m tired of trying. It’s never going to be enough. I’m never going to be enough. I always end up burned. And wounded. And hurt. And more broken than ever.


Entry 012:
It’s always hard to get past the pain, even if you tell yourself that it’s not, and that it’s going to be okay. It just hurts so bad that when you try to hope again, the wound cuts even deeper and leaves you more confused than ever. Everything comes crashing down, the world gets darker than it was and you can only wish against all odds that if you can finally learn to accept and wrap your heart around it, you won’t have to suffer the same fate twice.

But let’s face it. Not all of us are that lucky.


Entry 013:
For once, listen to yourself. You’ll never know what you’ll hear.


Entry 014:

Why do we keep losing things? Or people? Or chances? So that we can see the beauty in finding them again.

can i be florence nightingale?

I realized one thing today. Maybe it’s love after all. Maybe I love Nursing too much that I’m scared to commit any mistake, to do something that can take away my freedom to save other people’s lives. Heck! I’ve been so involved in this internal battle for years that I forgot to notice that it has already been won. You see, I always found myself becoming someone who would dedicate her life in bringing the truth in the open; or at least write about it, be associated with the media or something. But I never imagined being an agent of truth myself – in a caring, nurturing kind of way which is Nursing. Years in Nursing school certainly brought out the worst and best in me. I’ve actually came to a point where I regretted everything that I have worked hard for. Yet the love that I never acknowledged until now made everything worthwhile.

I’m sure that whatever happens after this, I will still be happy with the choice I made, coz after all that’s been said and done, the difference I made and the things I did that touched other people’s lives are beyond any sense of fulfillment in this world.

what i get from reading vampire stories.

I just finished reading the Twilight series. True enough, I guess it’s better to find yourself living in a fantasy rather than having to wake up and realize you’re still living in the real world. Compared to the “new kind of haven” I’ve just been through, I feel like their lives are a million times better than mine, even for the danger and complexity of it all. It’s a pity that I won’t ever get to experience the same kind of adventure in this lifetime. For sure it would have made a different person out of me. Perhaps not greater than the person I am now, but at least, different.

Originally posted: September 9, 2008

i'm a peyton, not a brooke.

Sometimes you have to go through every pain, every heartache, every tear…only to feel alive and eventually realize that to be alive is something more to thank for. For most people, that is. But to me, it’s bullsh*t. I’d rather have 24 hours left for me to have my chance at happiness than to bid my time waiting for a life without any chance at all.

Originally posted: September 8, 2008

wishful thinking.

current mood: sleepy

listening to: Freeze by TPain feat. Chris Brown (can't get enough of this tune!)

We had mass this morning at school. It was Ash Wednesday and of course, Servien's thanksgiving as well. i'm glad that many of my batchmates got out of their way just to attend the celebration. It was fun seeing them again, though we aren't complete anymore. Some are already out of the country, some had jobs to deal with. I couldn't help feeling all nostalgic all over again.

I never had been prouder. Look at what we've become. We really made it. We had survived the storm, now we're experiencing the bliss of rainbow-colored days. Life is good. God is good.

Now one thing left for us to have is a little bit of good time. For the past couple of days I started thinking of this Grand Celebation for the batch, since we never had one, not ever. And so began one hell of a personal mission. I gathered the guts to contact some of my well-trusted friends to help me organize one big event for my dear Servien. I couldn't do it on my own, of course. Some agreed, some didn't. 'Twas okay, as long as this plan would be pushed through. This time, I won't take NO for an answer. This had to happen. Four years in the making and it comes down to this one particular moment - a time for oneness of heart and spirit.

I hope everything goes well. I really hope that everything would fall into place and work out for the best. It would be our first and last.

xoxo, Yan

P.S.

I was able to collect around three thousand bucks this morning. Good start right?

109 ---> excuse me. i have a life.

(taken from hazel's blogspot post)

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life.
Mark the ones you've seen.
There are 170 movies on this list. Put your score in header and repost:

( ) Sukob ( ) Oh my ghost! ( ) White lady (X) Wag kang lilingon (X) Feng shui ( ) KKK ( ) Enteng Kabisote ( ) Enteng Kabisote 2 ( ) Enteng Kabisote 3 ( ) Super Noypi ( ) Karma (X) Shake, Rattle and Roll (X) D Anothers (X) First Day High

Total: 5

(X) Bring it On 1 (X) Bring it On 2 (X) Napoleon Dynamite ( ) Fun With Dick and Jane ( ) Cake (X) Zathura ( ) Borat (X) Dead or Alive (X) 8 mile (X) 50 First Dates (X) The Princess Diaries (X) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement (X) Legally Blonde (X) Legally Blonde 2

Total: 11

(X) Charlie's Angels (X) Dude, Where's My Car? (X) Scary Movie (X) Scary Movie 2 (X) Scary Movie 3 (X) Scary Movie 4 (X) American Pie (X) American Pie 2 (X) American Wedding (X) American Pie Band Camp

Total: 10

(X) Harry Potter (X) Harry Potter 2 (X) Harry Potter 3 (X) Harry Potter 4 (X) Resident Evil 1 ( ) Resident Evil 2 (X) The Wedding Singer ( ) Cinderella Man (X) The Village (X) Coyote Ugly

Total : 8

(X) Space Jam ( ) Finding Neverland (X) Signs (X) The Grinch ( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (X) White Chicks (X) Little Manhattan (X) 13 Going on 30 (X) Click (X) Devil Wears Prada

Total : 8

(X) Mighty Ducks 1 (X) Mighty Ducks 2 (X) Mighty Ducks 3 (X) Along Came Polly (X) Deep Impact ( ) KingPin (X) Meet The Parents (X) Meet the Fockers ( ) Eight Crazy Nights ( ) Joe Dirt (X) Anaconda

Total : 8

(X) Alice in Wonderland ( ) The Terminal (X) The Lizzie McGuire Movie ( ) Deep Blue Sea ( ) Dumb & Dumber ( ) Dumber & Dumberer (X) Final Destination (X) Final Destination 2 (X) Final Destination 3 ( ) Halloween (X) The Ring ( ) The Ring 2 ( ) Ring Zero (X) Flubber ( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle (X) Practical Magic ( ) Chicago ( ) Ghost Ship ( ) From Hell (x) Hellboy ( ) Secret Window (X) I Am Sam ( ) The whole nine yards ( ) The Whole Ten Yards

Total : 10

(X) The Day After Tomorrow (X) Child's Play ( ) Seed of Chucky ( ) Bride of Chucky (X) 10 Things I Hate About You (X) Just Married ( ) Gothika ( ) Nightmare on Elm Street (X) Sixteen Candles ( ) Remember the Titans ( ) Coach Carter (X) The Grudge ( ) The Grudge 2 (X) The Mask ( ) Son Of The Mask

Total : 7

(X) My Super Ex-Girlfriend ( ) Joy Ride (X) She's the Man ( ) Ocean's Eleven ( ) Ocean's Twelve (X) Mean Girls (X) Step Up ( ) Pearl Harbor ( ) Predator I ( ) Predator II ( ) Superstar ( ) Happy Feet (X) Ice Age (X) Ice age 2 The Meltdown

Total : 6

(X) Independence Day (X) Cujo (X) Idle Hands ( ) Darkness Falls ( ) Christine (X) ET ( ) Children of the Corn (X) My Boss' Daughter (X) Maid in Manhattan ( ) Monsters Inc. (X) Rush Hour (X) Rush Hour 2 ( ) Best Bet (X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (X) She's All That (X) Poseidon (X) Titanic ( ) Mars Attacks ( ) Event Horizon (X) Ever After (X) Forrest Gump ( ) Big Trouble in Little China (X) The Terminator ( ) The Terminator 2 ( ) The Terminator 3

Total : 15

(X) X-Men (X) X-Men 2 (X) X-Men 3 (X) Spider-Man (X) Spider-Man 2 (X) Sky High ( ) Jeepers Creepers ( ) Jeepers Creepers 2 ( ) Catch Me If You Can (X) The Others ( ) The Eye ( ) Dark Water (X) Cruel Intentions (X) Cruel Intentions 2 (X) The Hot Chick (X) Shrek (X) Shrek 2

Total : 12

(X) Swimfan ( ) Miracle (X) School of Rock ( ) K-Paxx (X) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (X) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (X) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (X) A Walk To Remember (X) Hollow Man ( ) The 40-year-old-virgin (X) The Exorcist (X) Exorcism of Emily Rose

Total: 9

GRAND TOTAL: 109 movies

Verdict: Certified Movie Buff. But take note, I have a life!

rise of the slumdog.

Current mood: sleepy

Listening to: How to Say Goodbye by Paul Tiernan

This was originally posted on my Friendster account a few weeks ago.

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SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE

A Review

This is the first time I got into the Academy Awards movie craze, and my first time to ever like an indie-derivative, Bollywood-turned-Hollywood type of film...all because of this one particular movie.

Everything about it is practically superb. When you look at the whole picture, you'll see that all angles were perfectly aligned to create such a wonderful masterpiece.

The story is the soul of the whole movie. It's truly one of a kind. The life that Jamal and his brother had is by chance one of the hardest and the most extraordinary I've seen that is depicted on film. With all the twists and turns, detours and probably dead ends in their journey, only a person whose heart is strong and genuine can survive.

As a movie buff who dislikes dirty and unorganized settings such as the slums, this one truly changed my perspective. It's really difficult to shoot in a dangerous and fast-paced city like Mumbai, yet the production crew managed to pull it off just fine. All the scenes were beautifully captured and were able to encapsulate both the innocence and tragedy in Jamal's life - all of which contributed to his millionaire success.

Acting - brilliant.

Cinematography - beautiful.

Editing - outstanding.

Soundtrack - awesome.

To sum up, SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE is by far the movie to beat. With 10 nominations under its belt, it's a surefire hit that will not only take the Oscars by storm, but our hearts as well.

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What did I just say about taking the Oscars by storm?

8 wins out of 10!!! Magnificent!

- Best Adapted Screenplay

- Best Cinematography

- Best Sound Mixing

- Best Editing

- Best Original Score

- Best Original Song

- Best Director

- BEST PICTURE

What a real piece of art. I was so touched to see the whole gang receive the award on stage - even that cute, little boy who portrayed the younger Jamal.

For sure, this one's going to stay in my heart for quite a while. =)

P.S.

I didn't know Hugh Jackmn was fit for musical roles. That man can definitely carry a tune...and dance too! Way to go, Wolverine!!!

200%

Current mood: excited

Listening to: chiping of the birds...swaying of the trees in the breeze

For the past two days I was really bummed with my internet connection at home. I coudn't browse, chat or even blog. It was like being imprisoned. And the worse part was...I coudn't do anything about it. Grr!

But what really made my day (February 20) was the text coming from Madam that our batch got a 100% passing rate in the November Board exam. Nothing, not even the network's wacky hell of a service can disrupt me in a new-found state of Nirvana.

At long last, we really did it. We actually made it happen.

We crossed barriers.

We went against the norm.

We disproved the society's judgments about us.

We made history.

I hate to say this but...Ooops, we did it again. (*wink!)

200%!!! 200%!!!

Hell yeah! I totally saw this coming! Without a doubt, I knew we could all make it!

Gosh, I can't really describe the feeling. I'm just so proud and blessed to be part of this wickedly awesome batch...Servien, my family. It only shows that with smarts like ours, incredible talent, passion, true determination, bucket-full of prayers and unwavering, perfect FAITH, nothing, and absolutely nothing...is impossible.

God is so good. For this and more, we owe Him all the glory.

To my Servien, let this be the beginning of the fulfillment of our dreams. We can make it happen. Together, let us continue making a difference because...

(everbody, altogether shout!!)

Once a Servien, always a Servien.

---------------------------------------------------------------->>> <3

By the way, I got this from a comment in our Servien Friendster Account.

SERVIEN FUN TRIVIA:

1.) From June 2008 to May 2009 - It's the Year of St. Paul

2.)2008 (last year) Mother of Candles Feast in Jaro, color of candle is BLUE

2009 (this year) Mother of Candles Feast in Jaro, color of candle is GREEN

3.)June Board Exam: 1&2 (BEGINNING OF THE MONTH)November Board Exam: 29&30 (END OF THE MONTH) ALPHA PHI OMEGA - The BEGINNING AND THE END - GOD ALMIGHTY

4.) June 2008 - results released at nightNovember 2008 - results released at dayIN DARKNESS & IN LIGHT - GOD IS WITH US

5.) Servien Mass Song: One Bread, One Body, One People - ONE HUNDRED PERCENT

6.)IN-HOUSE LOCATIONS: JUNE: St. Paul University Dorm - BACK GARDEN WITH CHRIST ON THE CROSSNOVEMBER: Holy Rosary Reflection Center - FRONT GARDEN - MOTHER MARY (SERVANTS OF CHRIST + SERVANTS OF MARY = SERVIEN CHRISTI MARIAE)

EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE! WE WERE MADE FOR GOD'S PURPOSE! TO SERVE & LIVE FOR OTHERS & FOR HIS GREATER GLORY!

-thanks to Maggy for posting this. what a true inspiration!

metalmouth and guilty stories.

current mood: tired
listening to: my dormate blabbering on the phone

i got my braces adjusted today. i was hoping for a little relief for i knew it was going to be "drool day" for me. luckily, it didn't hurt much like the last time. again, i'm scheduled for another appointment next week.

my doctor did the usual, like readjusting the elastic wire (sort of rubber band) around my incisors and canines. Then he put some kind of metal wire around another one which was the source of the minor ache i'm having right now.i'm sure a little dose of ibuprofen would settle the problem for me. maybe later.

the rest of the day went okay, i guess. i treated my friend Ginle to a movie. we watched Bride Wars. it was hilarious. typical girl-bonding kind of flick. then we scooped the whole mall for shoes. i was looking for a pair of black flats for my new yellow dress, and Gee was looking for black pumps for her own seminar outfit. we looked everywhere, in every shop and botique but unluckily, we didn't find what we were looking for. bummer!

we went back to ginle's house to pee. we chatted for a while - about our own whereabouts, the latest gossip on our friends and of course, boys. then i went to atrium to scout for new DVDs. guess what my purchase was! A BlueRay copy of Nick &Norah's Infinite Playlist! like i didn't have enough of that already. heck, i'm addicted!

anyway, i asked my mom if could take some moolah from my Metro ATM. i was planning to buy that C-U-T-E blouse from Kamiseta if i'd decided not to buy the flats i've been eyeing the whole afternoon. of course, my mom didn't approve. she said it was way too much to spend on a single shirt. i was crushed, but then i knew better. (mindflash: parents worrying about NCLEX expenses, lack of income, financial crisis, etc.)


so the sad ending was...

i went home with a heavy heart,
but a clear conscience. (smiling)

xoxo, Yan2

nick & norah's valentine lesson.

The first time I’ve read about about Nick & Norah was from Candy Magazine. It was from an article featuring some of the most read teenage books of today. I didn’t really paid much attention to it that time but when I heard that they will make it into a movie, I got interested. Soon I was looking for it in the bookstores and just my luck when I got my hands on one.

It’s an interesting story, not your typical high school boy-meets-girl-and-they-fall-in-love kind of drama. It’s one of a kind. Sometimes things don’t really make sense but they happen because it’s meant to be that way. Sometimes when fate allows us, we meet the love of our lives in the most peculiar places, in the most unexpected way. We never know but the stranger right in front of us can be the person we were meant to spend the rest of our lives with. We just need to open our eyes…and hearts to let love find us. This is what Nick and Norah taught me.

The movie is amazing. It’s one crazy laugh trip that you and your friends can enjoy. Since it’s book-based, some of the scenes were modified to fit the audience’s taste but the way I see it, they still did Cohn and Levithan justice.

As for the book, it’s smart and funny. I may say it’s quite disturbing to read a lot of F words throughout the pages but still, it’s ingeniously written. The authors had their way of making the readers laugh and curse and still fall in love at the same time.

Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist – a rockin’ soundtrack-filled, wild ride that can make you get lost in the busy streets of Manhattan, but only to be led back home on the road of true love.

evanescence.

012809 10:29 PM

Current mood: inspired
Listening to: Fearless by Taylor Swift


There are moments that happen in our lives that we wish would never end. When we look back, we are only reminded by the happiness we felt back then, wondering if such moments would ever happen again, or if we could only turn back time. The family reunion where everyone was present, having that father-daughter dance on your eighteenth birthday, experiencing that first special kiss, enjoying the best out-of-town trip with your friends, or just even having random but meaningful conversations with your neighbors – if we only gave a little more, we could have stayed that way forever. That if we have not taken that step forward, we wouldn’t have moved on and life would be as it is.

There are also moments we try as hard to reclaim. We give up everything just to change what was not supposed to be. The no you carelessly uttered when he proposed, the single letter you didn’t get to shade that made you fail an exam, the visit you never paid to your long-time dying grandmother, the one night you agreed to give yourself to a casual stranger, the time you decided to end your life on a rope – things we could never get back. We blame ourselves for the loss and the moment of weakness; that if we just tried harder, things would have been different. If we would just have thought or felt otherwise, made another decision, we would have succeeded in feeling less guilty or wrong.

Then there are those moments that we wish to erase forever. Just the vague memory of it cripples the tiniest bit of courage we have left. When he broke up with you for the final time, the accident that claimed your mother, learning that your best friend has a terminal illness, enduring the nasty remarks about your disability when passing the school hallways, battling with your conscience for a crime – if only we could make it all disappear. At one point, we wish we were a part of another family or society, hoped that we were smart enough, rich enough, or beautiful enough. Worse, we prayed to be someone entirely different. Moments like these steal our last strip of dignity, With nowhere to go and no one to turn to, we break down and surrender.

Time is such a funny element. It plays us until we have nothing left to gain…or lose. In the end, we either want it to stop or we crave for more. No matter how puzzling it can be, it still manages to create skeptical persons out of us – confused and uncertain maybe; but when we allow it to play us right, we always end up braver and more sensible.

We only have assigned seconds to stay on this earth, ergo, it is only fitting to live it the best way we possibly can – no regrets, no holding back. After all, we are just but human beings.

We live, we die, then we live again.

xoxo, Yan

my bucket list.

012709 10:55 PM

Current mood: blank
Listening to: Over My Head by the Fray

I was about to go to bed yet something pushed me to grab my laptop and just type away. Guess I’m not ready to doze away to dreamland just yet. Actually I was battling with myself the whole day on how to go about with this blog since I’m always out of ideas. I considered republishing my old write-ups from my previous blog. At one point I wanted to change my blog address again (for the nth time!), and I even brainstormed for a whole lot of possible topics for entries.

Now, how’s this for a blog entry, eh? My very own Bucket List! Haha! How original. Read on. Maybe you’ll get a better glimpse on what a fascinating and extraordinary person I am.

Publish a book (note: beat Rowling and Meyer)
It’s a passion – my only passion. From the moment I received my first diary, I knew that I’ve always wanted to be a writer. It’s like a mission – to get something out there; to have something to share with the world. I may not be an ideal hero but I can make a difference from where I stand – through what I write. It’s like sharing a piece of me.

Direct a movie
It’s one of my many frustrations. It’s fun to do, you know, being the man (or woman) behind the camera. It’s a different feeling. I was never intrigued by the spotlight. Being behind cam or just by being part of the production crew could be a different kind of fulfillment. I wanted to be in film school but I never got the chance. Just to let you in on a secret: I bagged the Best Director in a play once…in high school.Haha!

Launch a fashion line
Recently, I’m fascinated with fashion. I don’t know why but suddenly I find myself being drawn to criticizing outfits on Gossip Girl, watching Project Runway and scooping for new fashion trends in magazines. Haha!

Ride in a hot air balloon
It’s very old-school but way, way magical. I want to get proposed to while taking a ride in one, and get this – with fireworks!

Join an activist rally
I haven’t experienced being in one yet. It would be incredible to be a part of history, don’t you think? To be a part of something that was built from courage and strong set of principles will truly be a legacy for my future grandchildren to look up to.

Travel around Europe
My ultimate destination! If I can’t tour the whole globe, Europe must have me, at least. There are lots of beautiful places to go to and I want to visit them one by one! And I’ll even bring along my very own Vespa!

Join a Forensics team (CSI better be ready)
An obsession, maybe? Haha! It would really make me look like one tough chick! The way I see it, collecting fingerprints, DNA, and other sorts of evidence looks like a cool, hardcore job. As much as I want to admit it, seeing the mystery unfold before my eyes gives me a different kind of high.

Skydive???
Don’t know about this one but I believe this task holds the top spot on other people’s bucket lists so I might as well include this in mine.

Watch a Broadway production
New York…here I come. Wicked is at the top of my list.

Record/produce an album
I really liked what Peyton did on One Tree Hill. She was able to convince some well-known and big-time artists and bands to record an album for free, the proceeds of which would go to a foundation. I really want to do that too, something for a cause. And besides, I’m not a bad singer myself (only in the shower, haha!).

Star in a music video
I don’t mind being a back-up dancer or being just a passer-by or one of the background props. But being Jesse Macartney’s leading lady wouldn’t hurt either. (wink!)

Witness the Olympics
I think it’s a once in a lifetime chance for the host country to really showcase what they’re made of so being in the Olympics isn’t just about watching different teams going for the gold; it’s also about experiencing different cultures and understanding the very essence of achieving global friendship and unity.

Shave my head???
It stands for a fresh start…a new beginning…a second chance (at a more beautiful hair, maybe. Haha!).

Learn to master a musical instrument
I had piano and organ lessons when I was little but it didn’t last very long. I eventually grew tired and bored. My next prospect – the guitar!

Eat an out-of-this world delicacy
Snakes, rats, insects – I’m up for it! Maybe I should have auditioned in Pinoy Fear Factor.

Swim in the Dead Sea
I can swim and swim to my heart’s content and wouldn’t get drowned. How majestic is that?

Meet my heroes: Paulo Coelho and Natalie Portman
They’re such an inspiration, hands down!

Go on a date with a Royal
I’m setting my sights on a duke or an earl. Princes cause too much drama!

Kiss in the rain
Like that particular scene in romantic movies. I’d like to try this with the one person I would like to kiss for the rest of my life.

These are what I’ve came up with…for now. I’m sure there are lots to consider as Bucket List potentials. Now that I’ve got free time on my hands, I’m certain that I can think of more. You know what they say, an idle mind is a devil’s workshop. Haha! Kidding.

Xoxo, Yan

P.S. My NCLEX eligibility letter arrived. I’m up for another hurdle. Game on!

five-day prisonbreak.

Current mood: happy
Listening to: Get Back by Demi Lovato

I just got back from one of the best vacays I've ever had - a perfect welcome to my 2009. My dormate Wynchelle was always bugging me to spend a few days with her family in Kalibo, Aklan for the Ati-atihan Festival. Four years worth of waiting and the right moment has finallly come. For now, let the pictures do the talking.

Bora with friends Wynch, Pot and Matet. so muuuuchhh FUN!!!

Merrymaking at its finest! Cheers for more of Ati-atihan experience in the coming years!

What a way to end my vacay! I can't wait to come back here!

Sigh..All good things eventually come to an end; and I have to get back to my cellar again. (Haha) But then you never know. Luck might just be around the corner. More of my fabulous stories...soon! I'll keep you posted!

xoxo, Yan

2009

Current Mood: giddy
Listening to: Stranded by Jennifer Paige


It's NEW YEAR! Much has happened in the last year, or should I say, in the last couple of weeks.


MAJOR HEADLINES:

• I passed my IELTS!!! (Celebrate good times, come on!)


• I completed the nine mornings of Simbang Gabi.


• My family had the Best Christmas Party ever!


• I started my IV Therapy Completion.


• I had a blast with my friends at our grade and high school reunion.


• I had four patients at home during New Year's Eve.


• And I think I'm falling in love.

xoxo, Yan